Wow it’s amazing how one can just forget about this blog as
easily as a snap of a finger. Almost as amazing as how the very same person can
chance upon this blog whilst reminiscing about the past. Who even blogs nowadays?
I guess it’s time to re-christen this oddly sparse time capsule of a blog huh?
There’s no one word to describe the past 3 years of my teenage life. It was
exciting, emotional, fulfilling; yet there were times of despair and regret (SO
MUCH REGERET) too. Then again, how much despair can one feel when he’s
surrounded by the countless blessings in his life?
Cliché: Whatever’s gone is gone and whatever’s done is done,
gotta look forward and move on.
Honestly, right now, the past 3 years don’t matter as much,
as cliché as it sounds, what matters is now. Now, I find myself thinking about
what I want to do after I ORD, what I’m going to study, which path I’ll take. I
find myself asking the people around me for advice, looking up different
courses online, heck, even considering driving lessons. I guess this is what
adult life is like huh? Having the freedom to make your own decisions brings
with it the uncertainty of one’s ability to live with the consequences. I recently read some article about how it’s
alright to be unsure of what the future holds for me and to be confused by the
multitude of choices I can make right now. I think I kinda agree. Whatever the
future holds, at least I’m confident that the Lord is with me, as I often
remind myself.
But… having this reassurance in the Lord would really come
in handy when I start dreaming about HER. It’s at times like this when I need
to remember that whether I do eventually get the girl is really up to God…
right? Sometimes I can’t help but be afraid of being over-passive when I keep
this truth in mind. Anddd I end up too confused to function. Oh well, the way I
look at it, the only way to advance is to take things as they go and react
accordingly.
Sigh such is teenage life, yet I’m so thankful to be living
right now.
